Cyber Betty Memorial Shark Walk
Did that today at the Melbourne Aquarium. I'll miss you Elaine.

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Yes, silly, but fun

Your Penis Name Is...

Pumping Pole of Penile Power

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Chocolate Principles to Live By
1. Discover the Sweet Center: Positive change takes place from the inside out.

2. Let It Melt in Your Mouth: Make your life extraordinary.

3. Chocolate Makes You Feel Good: Stop feeling guilty.

4. No Need to Eat the Whole Box: Have the strength to say yes to what is important and no to what isn't.

5. A Little Good Chocolate Goes a Long Way: Expect nothing less than the best.

6. Pass the Chocolates: Give and receive in equal measure.

7. Chocolate Heaven: You can heal your life.

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Reiki
I went to a Communiversity class on Reiki today. I'm still sorting things out from it. I'ver attended several of the Communiversity classes in the last week. I've liked all of them so far. Just one session type classes are great by me.

Anyway. I've always considered new age stuff to be a bunch of hooey. Still do. But sometimes interesting hooey.

I signed up for this class with a friend who was really interested in this. She ended up getting stuck in St. Louis with her family, so I went by myself. Part of the "class" was having a sample Reiki treatment, 15-20 minutes. The practitioner, well, she spotted some things I don't tell people. I certainly didn't mention them. And she's not the first. It was, an interesting experience. I'm actually considering going for a full session. To see what's possible, what could I learn.

I need to think about things some more.

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Fifteen years
I just got my 15 year certificate & pin for my time in government service. Now I get 8 hours of vacation time every two weeks. Shucks, 6 weeks of vacation time a year. Plus the 3 weeks of sick time.

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Rumors of OT already
Unofficially as yet. Possibly next weekend. When I'm out of town, naturally. And was just talked into temporarily being asst mgr for the next 2 weeks, so also missing it at a higher pay. Grrr. Ah well, if it really does start this early, will be plenty to go around. Plus realized tonight that if I just make my regular pmts, will have my car paid off in 10 months. Hee hee, really want OT now, could then do it in 3 mths.

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Bizarre coincidences
Managed to get hold of my friend Jessica today. Couldn't really talk long, since she was helping one of our friends move. And was the only one to show up to help. Sorry, I'm 900 miles away, can't help. Anyway, so I called her back later, she was shopping. I'm not sure how the conversation got there, but somehow she was mentioning watching Queer As Folk when Lucy was just a few months old, & having her mother-in-law sit down to watch it with her. "Uh, this is about gay men, I'm not sure you'll like it." "oh, that's ok, I'll watch it." So naturally it has a graphic sex scene just a few minutes later, with two of the characters joining the Mile High club in the airplane bathroom, one having a heart attack & dying, and the other panicking when he realizes he's stuck in the bathroom with his now dead lover. Naked. (Mother-in-law laughed, btw.) I gasped, & said that was exactly the same episode & scene, when the youngest cabana boy had come over to visit several years ago. I also tried to dissuade him from watching. So Jessica & I were basically in the same situation.

She also said that when I called her earlier, she'd just picked up a receipt with the server's name of Kathleen, just as her phone rang showing that Kathleen was calling. Weird.

Several other coincidences that have happened lately featured in the discussion, but I don't remember what they were now. Just as I was watching a back episode of Lost, which features a bunch of bizarre "coincidences."

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Getting out of Purgatory free
Due to my dad's & brother in law's work schedules, we're going to just have a snacks thing on Christmas Eve this year, instead of the usual Christmas day feast. Woo hoo, Christmas obligation-free!

I think the best Christmas I ever had was the one year I couldn't afford to come home from grad school, & all my roommates went to visit their families. So I had the house to myself for a week. And just a phone call on Christmas to put up with from the family.

One of the notes on one Christmas card I got last week said something about how he wished my family would stay away (& how wrong it sounded to say that) & that my friends would stay close. I can deal with those wishes.

No family on Christmas! Yeah!!! Not sure what I'll do, but I'll figure something out.

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This is my animal spirit?
I can definitely see parts of this, but...

I took the "The Animal Spirit" quiz on gURL.com
		My animal spirit is... The Camel According to shamanistic wisdom, camel people are extremely patient and frugal. They don't get overly excited about anything and store up their energies for a rainy (or dry) day. They tend to not be into showiness of any kind. Read more... What is your animal spirit?

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Who knew cats liked cheesecake?
I'd bought a Costco cheesecake for Laser Rangers on Saturday, but ended up bringing half of it home because of the low turnout. Decided to get a piece tonight, so naturally dropped it on the floor. It had hit my leg on the way down, so I went in the bathroom to clean up. Decided to tend to business first, then wash the cheesecake off. While doing so, I felt something on my leg. Sera was intently licking all the cheesecake off. Weird little beast. Now I have to protect not only my salads and my bagels, but any cheesecake too. So much for the "cats are carnivores" theory. But I will admit, never expected cheesecake to be on the favored substance list.

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Still no news
I went by Kinko's & got 200 flyers done, was going around & posting them on doors tonight. Had wanted to try & get this whole side of the complex done tonight, since I have a feeling I'm not supposed to put flyers anywhere but the posting board in the mailrooms. "oh, you mean I wasn't supposed to do that? I'm sorry, I told you I was doing flyers, you didn't say I couldn't put one on everybody's door". I didn't get all 200 out, only about 140. Including the posting boards in the two mailrooms. I am tired. Eleven buildings, 12-16 apartments on 3 floors per building. If they don't say anything, will do some more buildings before I go to work, sigh, today.

I know Saturday I was just sure she was dead. Now, I think someone just took her in. Hopefully, this will be enough to get her back. I did mention a reward, although not the amount. Positive thoughts are appreciated.

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Feels strangely true

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Another quote
People take different roads seeking fulfillment and happiness. Just because they're not on your road doesn't mean they've gotten lost.

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A quote that made me think a bit
If you have made mistakes, even serious ones, there is always another chance for you. What we call failure is not the falling down, but the staying down.

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My Serenity character

You scored as Zoe Alleyne Washburne. The Soldier. You are the second in command, and that is fine. You like a chain of command, but only when the one in charge has earnt your respect. Those who earn your love or loyalty will find no one better to guard their back. </td> Zoe Alleyne Washburne 100% The Operative 100% Simon Tam 94% River Tam 94% Capt. Mal Reynolds 81% Hoban 'Wash' Washburne 69% Inara Serra 63% Kaylee Frye 63% Shepherd Derrial Book 63% Jayne Cobb 44% Which Serenity character are you? created with QuizFarm.com

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Serenity
Went home "sick" from work tonight. Terrible, splitting headache, doncha know? Actually did have a bit of one from the last idiot I had to talk to. Half an hour to convince the SOB that arguing with me wasn't going to change the fact that his money was probably stolen by his accountant. Wasn't going to change the fact that we did get the return he wanted to send us, so sending us a new one wasn't going to make us send him more money to replace what the accountant stole. Wasn't going to change the fact that we had already told him what bank he needed to talk to. Wasn't going to change the fact that filing multiple requests for a refund trace WON'T speed things up. And would just tell him to contact the same bank we already told him to contact. No, filing an extension request is not needed, we already have his return, even if he didn't get his money. And over and over and OVER again. Grrr.

Anyway, left work, fixed something to eat. Spanokopita, yummy. Took my shower, was running a bit late for the free screening of Serenity tonight. But still managed to get there an hour early. I'm still waiting on those Star Trek transporters, I hate driving in stop-n-go traffic.

There was such a line when I got there. I went in with Carol Doms, managed to get good seats. Had interesting conversations going here & there, nothing out of the ordinary pops out, though. The promoters did do some giveaways. Stupid questions to win. "what show is this movie based on?" "what vampire show did Joss Whedon do?", etc.

Enjoyed the movie, but I don't think it's going to go over big at the box office, because you really needed to have seen the tv show to understand most of what was going on. But is worth paying to see, definitely. There were a few club members there who had never seen the show, & said they did like the movie, had enough of an sf background that they weren't totally lost. But still.

Sigh, am feeling a bit of identification with River just now. Several of the characters, actually.

Hee hee, did enjoy one line by Kaylee. Don't remember it exactly, but it was something about not having had anything in her nether regions in the last year that didn't have batteries. Jayne sure wanted to hear more about that.

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Worried about going to sleep
I'm tired. I could sleep. But I don't want to. I'm not sure why it's bothering me, the thought of going to sleep. Of course, now that I'm now out of touch with ALL of my Louisiana friends, since the ones that didn't have to escape Katrina, are now having to escape Rita. And I don't know about the ones that had to leave the first time. Was never able to get hold of the friend in Baton Rouge that was hosting them. Three weeks, no news.

No, that's not the worry, although it is A worry.

Will try to sleep anyway.

I don't want to dream.

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My color

you are mediumseagreen #3CB371

Your dominant hues are cyan and green. Although you definately strive to be logical you care about people and know there's a time and place for thinking emotionally. Your head rules most things but your heart rules others, and getting them to meet in the middle takes a lot of your energy some days. Your saturation level is medium - You're not the most decisive go-getter, but you can get a job done when it's required of you. You probably don't think the world can change for you and don't want to spend too much effort trying to force it. Your outlook on life is brighter than most people's. You like the idea of influencing things for the better and find hope in situations where others might give up. You're not exactly a bouncy sunshine but things in your world generally look up.

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Back issues
Along with everything else that has been triggering me lately, I started noticing and wondering about the various emotional issues I have about my back.

Several of us in my support group had had problems with this one group member, who thankfully dropped out Saturday. Just left a note, not that I'm complaining. We were all discussing it at lunch later, & I commented on the dress I had worn to another group member's birthday party, which I think is now my favorite. (never thought I would say that about a dress). Anyway, I had planned on wearing the dress to the party, until the unnamed group member said he might be going. The hairs on the back of my neck just stood up, & I immediately started going over in my head alternative clothes. Just the thought of him seeing me in that dress creeped me out. Later, he decided he wasn't going. So I wore it, as a measure of my regard for the birthday friend. We all wrote good wishes on helium balloons, & she took them outside & released them. Beautiful ceremony. Anyway, since I went straight to the club picnic afterwards, I managed to freak everybody out that I actually wore a dress. Hee hee, one of the gay men asked to borrow it.

But part of the issue with me wearing this dress. I have to feel VERY comfortable & relaxed. I usually wear shapeless tshirts. And the top of this dress was fairly formfitting, sleeveless, and just covered the back part of my bra. It's the amount of skin showing on my back, that really triggers my vulnerability issues. The shoulder straps were quite wide, & just covered my tattoo, as long as I arranged them right. Which also makes this dress useful if I do want to show my tattoo. But I don't share my tattoo with just anyone, either.

I never liked to have anyone walk behind me. It's only been the last few years that I've managed to allow it, although there are times when I still drop back to walk behind everyone else. I never liked to have anyone hold a door for me, because then they're behind me. And I still tend to weird out a bit when someone stands close behind me. Especially if they touch me from behind & I'm not expecting it.

I know I don't like to even try & give backrubs. I just seem to have some phobia about hurting people, & then I don't do it well, because I'm so timid about the amount of pressure that I use. Mind you, I like getting them, but it's another trust issue who I will accept them from. I'm fortunate that a couple of my friends are professional massage therapists. My brother in law is one also, but I'm not comfortable around him either, although I couldn't say why. I won't let him touch me either. Although that could be the family thing, too.

I used to be good at giving backscratches, but for some reason, I don't seem to be able to do that now either. It had been a while since I'd given anybody one, & offered one to Adam while I was in Philly. While he did accept, I stopped, because at first I was tickling him, then I just couldn't get into my rhythm. I don't know why. It just seemed like my phobia of giving backrubs had spread to a phobia of giving back scratches too. Weird.

Although several days later I was able to wear the same dress for him that I'd worn for my friend's birthday. Ok, I was wearing it because I felt like it, not just for him. Which also felt weird, but in a good way. And I didn't weird out when we were waiting in the restaurant bar for a table (almost an hour), and he was standing behind me, occasionally stroking the skin of my back. So isolated individuals are ok, it seems.

On the other hand, I've noticed a lot more dreams/fantasies lately about doggy-style sex. And just plain spooning, whether platonic or not. So I seem to want to be able to have someone behind me. "i've got your back", maybe?

Will have to think about it some more.

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